This is going to probably end up being a short blog post, but that’s okay! ?
I basically want to talk about asking for help when it comes to bad days.
This is something I find I’m having to do more and more. Especially during this bad flare up I’ve been having. I’m 25. I shouldn’t have to ask for help for simple tasks. That is why I hate having to ask for it.
A few examples of things I needed help with over the past few weeks.
- Getting up. I’ve actually needed help to get out of a seat. ?
- Eating. I tried to go on for as long as I could without asking for help. Holding the fork was painful. So I kept swapping hands, until I caved and asked for help.
- Walking… I needed Graham to help me walk to the bathroom. How pathetic does that sound?! ?
Now, I know I can be a little bit stubborn. For example, I sat outside for 2.5 hours because I didn’t have the strength or energy to get out of the chair. I was home alone, and could have got someone to come over and help me, but I didn’t.
I don’t know what my MS has in store for me. I don’t know if it’s going to get a lot worse and I’ll have to ask for help for everything. And I’ll be honest here, I already feel like a burden… which is why I will try my hardest not to ask for help now, because I don’t know if in the future I’ll have to ask for more. I don’t want to burn out everyone around me for helping me out a lot now and needing more later on. If that makes sense?
MS sucks. It’s so hard and frustrating!
Thankfully I’ve got an appointment with my neurologist next week. So stay tuned for how that goes!
Also want to add, that I know I have friends and family who will always help me if I ask for it. And I’m forever grateful for that. ? Basically I need to be okay for asking for help, and stop being so stubborn!
As always, thanks for reading, and I’ll catch you next time! ?